sorri for my absence

ok..well..sorri for not updating for like one week.. cause my life is so busy..it's like busy till i have no time to rest..i'm woring at causeway point popular lately..working as an retailassistance in the english department..to say in short.. i working permanently there..so after school i will rush down to work..

Saturday and sunday i will be working full shift which is 10-10pm..which is 12 hrs.. yup3.. even though of that but my life is still plan properly.. not forsaking my school work..marketing and tourism project is coming up..yup3..

I've watched The seeker last week.. on sat.. i watch with yong jie.. it's a nice show.. i give this show 3.5/5.. mum should have come to watch it.. it's not boring..seriously the show i chose it's not boring at all.. not like yong jie.. lust caution..it's damn boring man..but i still watch with him..yup3..

Yst never went to school..cause i was really tired..and somemore lesson were not that much..so i decided to rest at home.. ;) sorri for my absence..

anyway.. i will just published the story..sorri to kept you guys waiting..

This big man, attitude is like a child, whether he is in a good mood or in a bad mood all is written on his face. He will know his entire problem by just looking at his facial expression.
But this is what he likes about him, direct and no hidings. When he is throwing his temper, the height of one hundred and eighty five just looks like a three years old kids. He put down his book, ignore his presence, Ken walked to the kitchen.

Anyway, he know that this guy won’t hide his feeling, he will tell him later on so Ken never asked him what has happen. And as usual, Gary was controlling his temper, when he saw Ken walked into the kitchen ignoring him, he can’t bear it anymore.

He was thinking, at this moment, if a woman is beside him will he feel much better? At least a woman will run to him and ask him what has happen, why he throw such a big temper?

But his lover, His man, walked to the kitchen without asking him what has happen. At this moment he felt disappointed but he never expected Ken to be like a woman to ask more about him. And so he followed him to the kitchen. In the kitchen, Ken was preparing the ingredients for tonight’s dinner. When Gary saw this he started to feel a little ecstatic. “Are you cooking for me?” He asked in a surprised manner.

Ken raised his eye brow and replied. “Why, you don’t like?” While he was replying his hand was moving the ingredients at the same time. “No!” Gary quickly reply, “I love it, how can I hate it!” he reply too quickly that he almost bite his tongue. Ken saw his expression, he laughed, and this is how cute he can be. “Something happen today?”

He was slicing the fish and asking him at the same time.

Speaking of this, Gary’s anger shoot up. “Recently, we are following a big case, you should have heard of it right? The case from Calvin Co!”

“Yes, heard it before.” Ken answered ruggedly.

“Those people are totally inhuman! How can they do such stuff to a weak girl!” While elaborating, Gary gave a punch to the marble table. Ken noticed the punch, he looked up at Gary. “Ken, I shouldn’t tell you this because it’s part of my work I should keep it confidential but I’ve something to tell you so it’s alright.” Gary suddenly looked at Ken with his mesmerising eyes.

“What is it?” Ken asked calmly. “If Calvin Co hire you to fight the case for them, please don’t accept the case, you have to promise me this!” Gary suddenly got hold of his shoulder, using a tone which has never been so serious.

“Why?” “What, why?” he was panicking, “I know you normally fight cases for large rewards and don’t care about the victims’ pain. But this Calvin Co is really too bad for you to handle! You know the spark of this case? This case is all about the director’s son, he molested his secretary and the secretary wanted to use the justice way to execute the guy which was reporting it to the police, but she was murdered. Someone saw it and can’t bear to see the woman die so unpleasantly, so that person decided to justify the whole crime and so everything became worst.”

“And so?” Ken asked him calmly. “KEN!!” Gary shouted, “So injustice, so inhuman, you still want to help them? Do you know what they have done? It’s not all about the secretary! You have never seen the victim’s family, their pain! Even if Calvin Co gives you a heavenly amount, you cannot accept it!”

Ken did not utter any word; he was just looking at him. Gary tipped his face up, “this time you really have to promise me! This case is under Keith, this case is not because of my conscience and principle, and it’s because of you! Do you understand? Keith has straightened out his mind and intends to win this case no matter what, if you were to connect to this case, Keith won’t let you go so easily.”

Ken suddenly let out a bland laughter. “What if I don promise you? What will you do?” “You don promise me?” Gary was so angry that he increased the strength he used to tip Ken’s face. “You have no choice but to promise me!”

He gave a cold smile, get rid of his hand. “Are you kidding me? Who are you to me? What makes you have the power to control what I want to do? Why must I listen to what you compile?”
After listening to what Ken has said, Gary’s eyes became bigger, and the burning flame became stronger. Ken stepped back. “What if I tell you that I’ve accepted, what will you do?” Gary felt that he was being hit by the words, his hoarse voice said out something which he wouldn’t believe. “Then we are finished.”

Heard what Gary has said, Ken’s face turned pale, one step behind, his back was supported by the marble table and he was looking deep into Gary’s eyes. “What...did...you said?” Gary swallowed his saliva; take in a deep breath, a pair of black eyes was looking at him. “If you accept this inhuman case, then we are finished.” “Finished?” Ken repeated what he say, he smiled, his eyes add in another layer of cold ash, “Just finished like this?”

“Ken, you didn’t accept the case right? You know what I mean; I just can’t tolerate you doing such stuff.” Gary went forward and got hold of his shoulder. Ken move his eye sight slowly, and met his, then he laugh. “I’m just kidding with you, don’t worry.”

His simple words; let him felt uncomfortable. Since Ken wanted him to not worry, that represent that he won’t accept the case? Is it? He chose to trust him, He hugged his lover, both hand locked at his waist, hugging tightly. “Don’t joke with me next time, why frighten me like this?”

Ken is 180cm tall but he is slim, so that makes a person which is 185cm tall like Gary to be so strong infront of him. As he feels the breathing of Ken, the touch of his waist, he felt relieved.
“Are you scared?” Suddenly Ken asked. “What?” Gary didn’t heard what he said as he was so into the hugging and so he got stunned. “You said that I frighten you just now.”

“Yes, I am of course frightened by you. You want to break up with me?” He let go of his arms at his waist, smiling while looking at him, raise his eye brow, his eye sight seem naughty. Ken’s face doesn’t show any signs of happiness, his face colour seem pale than usual.

He step back again, His hand was pressing at the area where his heart is located, silent. Gary did not notice the changes Ken made, the dimples are still hanging on his cheeks. “Why are you pressing your heart and give me that look on your face? You are not a woman, you can’t be feeling sad when I mention breaking up isn’t you?”

When he heard what he said, he smiled, went over and curls his fingers around his. Gary was seduced by Ken, he walked forward and tried to kiss him. This time, Ken kiss him first, his tongue was inside his turning all around in his mouth, this increase the desperation of Gary. When Gary wanted to carry him and proceed to the next step, a bite was given.

Ken did not soften the bite, Gary felt the pain, pushed him away and pressing his lips. “What are you trying to do?” he smiled, what left in his mouth was the blood smell. “I am still a guy, so I still have the strength.” He look at him, turn and walk out of the kitchen, he say a few words after walking out of the kitchen. “Dinner, you can cook yourself.”

Gary was left behind in the kitchen, pain and anger came at the same time. He doesn’t even know what did he done wrong? He really had a bad life man; he looked at the marble table, the ingredient left there, Ken was going to cook his vinegar fish, and that’s his famous dish.

Thinking of how it tastes, Gary swallowed his salvia. He sigh, he can’t have the fish tonight.

Ken closed the door, back facing the door, Hand is still pressing against his heart. The pain was felt in his heart; he doesn’t know the pain is cause by Gary or by his body. The room was dark; he can feel the coldness in there, the coldness just feel like his blurred future.

Breakup, how can he say it so easily?

Chapter 2


Ken and Louis, after the court they were surrounded by some unknown identification guys. They said that they were “invited” to Calvin Co as a guest. In reality, Ken knew it very well, even if he doesn’t want to go, he left with no choice. Instead of waiting for those people to take actions, why not just follow them. Anyway he has no more energy to fight with them and most importantly Louis is with him. Louis, this guy has always made him worried, he is curious about everything and he is not matured enough. Ken felt curious, a person like him why chose to take up the route to law?

“Boss, must we follow them?” Sitting on the car, Louis still mumble to his ear. Ken look at him, Gave him an order, “ Later on, please be cleverer, don’t listen, don’t asked, don’t look, I call you to go, please go.”

After hearing what he said, Louis was shocked by his words. Ken smiled. They was brought to Calvin Co’s top level, a man wearing black suit was following them whenever they go, it’s exactly the same as those actor and actress in the drama series. Ken looked at the surrounding, this is not what he expected, and the big boss of Calvin Co would find him personally. But he still won’t accept the case.

If the first time he rejects is all because of what he has considered, then this time he reject them is all because of him, Gary. The two words that came out from his mouth so easily, he is still kind of not comfortable with it. Even though It was just something he said out of desperation, he is still the one who will be easily ditch by him, he just don’t want to lose him.

Just because Gary can ditch him, but He can’t ditch him, he can’t lose him.

Thinking of ways to reject their case, but now, he is afraid that he can’t reject them. He just has to see what will happen next, in order for him to act next.

The office was classic yet elegant; the window pale was covered with heavy grey curtain and so the office was dark , the only light that was in the room was produced by the crystal lighting in the middle of the office.

Louis was kept outside the office, look likes the big boss only wants to talk to him alone. Once he stepped in, the door behind him closes straight away. The office was too quiet, the only person he saw was a guy wearing Black suit, back facing him. The person did not speak, and so did he. Anyway he has alot of patient, quietly, he was thinking how can to tackle this situation.

The man that was back facing him moved, turning his back and facing him. He was wearing a thick and heavy sun glasses, the sun glasses was really big, and it covers half of his face.

From the uncovered face, he can infer that he is 45 years old and above.
“Lawyer Ken” a hoarse voice breaks down the quietness.

“It’s me.” Ken replied calmly, he is not eager to asked, he is waiting for the person to intro himself to him. “My surname is Poh, you can address me as Mr Poh.”

The black suit man intro himself in a simple way.

“Mr Poh, you find me just because of the previous case your employee mention to me?” Ken asked him straight away. “You are right, look likes you and I don’t like to waste time crapping around here then let’s go straight into the topic.” Mr Poh laughed and in his laugh he can sense the hoarseness in it.

“I think I have made my stand previously with Jack.” Ken felt that he was saying nonsense but he made his stand one more time. “You came here today, standing in my office, you should realise that it’s not so easy for you to reject me.” “Oh?” He raised his eye brow, His eyes let out suspicion, “am I so talented that you have to use me to fight for your case?”

“Yes, you are, you are talented, I have no reason why I should not use you, because your results shows everything.” Mr Poh gave a cold smiled.

“Lawyer ken, you are famous in the lawyer line, if I don’t use you, who should I use?” Ken doesn’t agree with him, he laughed. “Are you trying to say that a pen is infront of you and you will of course use the pen instead of brush and ink board?.”

After listening to what Ken has said, Mr Poh gave a Slam on the table which was in front of Ken. He smiled, looking at the table being separated into two. Mr Poh is not angry, instead he laughed. “Lawyer ken, your mouth is what I like.”

“I’ve made my stand very clearly, Mr Poh if you insist, do you want to force me? Lawyer being force to fight case, I don’t think you want to lose your case even before the court start right?.” Ken shown no sight of facial expression.

Mr Poh laughed more loudly this time, “Young lad, you are indeed heartless, but you are not totally heartless. You are telling me that even if I hire you to fight for this case you won’t give your 100 percent in this case and instead you will ruin this case is it? How do you know I can’t let you listen to me?”

Ken listen to what he has to said, his heart felt a little pain. “You are right, you have no parents, you have no siblings, not even a friend, and I’ve nothing to threaten you right?” Even though Mr Poh was wearing black sun glasses, the eye sight still can be seen by Ken.

“You are right.” He say it peacefully, “I, myself I’ve nothing at all, name and fame is not what I really want, money, you can take it from me. I am nothing, I have nothing and I think you have nothing to threaten me.”

“Wrong!” Mr Poh smiled, a word was spoken slowly through his old voice. “Love---“
Ken was shocked, His heart almost pop out and the panicked feeling shown out from him slowly. “I have no Girlfriend.” He pretends to reply.

“Girlfriend?”Mr Poh replied in a sarcastic way. “You don’t like Girls, but you like Guys.” His heart shivered deep down. “What do you want?”

“Well, Straight forward.” Mr Poh replied proudly, “Since I know your sexual preference, of course I know who your lover is., the famous prosecutor, criminals hate this name, Gary. This really a weird group, isn’t it? Who would expect that a person full of justice would be a black hearted lawyer’s lover. Furthermore they are two guys, if this were to be spread in the society......” “You would like to use this to threaten me?” Ken gave a cold smile.

“Spread it out? These aren’t enough to threaten you, right this point I still can differentiate. Prosecutor Gary, been strict towards his job, hate evil to the core, and after all this year’s people in the black and white already have been offended, do you think he only have one enemy? Do you believe, by using my hands I can count how many ways I can make him suffer? He laughed in a cold manner.

Ken looked at him laughing, he did not make any comments. “Don’t believe? You think I am joking with you?” Mr Poh gave a sarcastic smiled. “You can go back, I can let you see the experiment result straight away.” He said those Cunning words very calmly. “His life? Career? Or his belief? Which one do you want me to try?”

He asked Ken. Ken squeezed his hand left on the side of the chair real tight. The cold feeling was spreading among his body. “What do you want?” He let out one breath to finish the words.

Louis was waiting outside and he seems to be worrying about his boss. Half day was gone and he finally saw his boss coming out through the door. Looking at his boss in details, found out that his face was paled. “Boss.” He walked forward. Ken caught hold of Louis’ hand which was coming over to hold him. “Let’s go.” Louis has something to say to Ken, but was pulled into the lift by Ken. Louis looked at the office, door was closed as if no air was allowed into the room. He saw nothing.

Another one mth and 28 days to my birthday..surprise me.. pls..