A Late Confession

Donno why..lots of ppl are confessing.. the trend is it? then is it my turn now?

lots of things happen over this yrs.. the journey when i started to grow..
My parents got divorced when i was pri 2.. things started to change.. Life isn't the same.. From a slim boy..to a Fat boy.. I was a slim boy last time when i was in primary school.. Don believe..can Ask Eric Lim.. He came from the same Pri school as i am.. I left the School when i was Promoted to Pri 3.. The 1 yr period was left to search for Primary School.. And i ended up in Keng seng Sec.. Which is now Gan Eng Seng pri.. I became a fat and ugly boy.. A boy which was detested By the whole class.. Life aren't Easy for me.. Can you imagine the whole Pri School life starting from Pri3-6 I didn't even know how would i survive there..

I started to eat and eat..What my grand ma can't finish i eat..What my dad can't finish i eat.. and that's how i became fat.. I'm Short not because i didn't jump.. that was inheir by my family.. And now i'm the tallest in the family..

I went Into ADMIRALTY SEC was a fate.. Because i should be studying in Queens town sec..or gan eng seng sec.. or anywhere near redhill.. I study in admiralty Sec because i decided to stay with my mum.. my dad remarried..so ya.. Life still aren't easy for me.. I Couldn't remember how i get to know Phua Yan zhi and wei ming.. they became my best friend.. i still rmb we went arcade and stuff.. hang out tgt.. i donno how that happen and how did i mix into the atmosphere..i can't rmb..but i never had regretted.. But another person came into my life..that brought our friendship down.. and that is Fau..[ Don wish to write out the full name].. You guys shuld know.. Because i lose my friend.. i lose my friendship with Wei Ming.. Yan Zhi hated me..Zheng ya Disturb me.. Everyone i knew in the previous class hated me..Just because i'm someone i can't accept.. U thought i'm happy with what i am previously..?

A slut, a Bitch, Queer,gay..Bi..A piece of Shit..whore..prositute.. Which Word you guys have not use before? It's true that words can't be heal once it is hurt..My wound is forever there..I did not blame anyone..

There's one thing i think i shuld say.. Wei Ming..You are the best Friend i ever had.. I have never regretted having such a friend..It's a waste now.. In between our friendship..was blocked by a barrier.. Yes..whatever the thai master has say was true.. I sux in communication.. that's why i have to learn..

Wei Ming you still rmb? the first day at school..at Evergreen..where everyone was still stranger to each other.. You was the first one to talk to me.. Even though that's not really talking..cos iskandar was scolding Che**** then you told me he was scolding me..and Iskandar got a shocked out of him and Apologies and say you crazy.. lol..when i think of that..my dimple starts to move up..and my smile came out..Seriously..before that thing happen you treated me as your best friend?

Jealousy..was the culprit.. if nt my number we never..WOULD NEVER.. landed on him..but everything was over..

Becos of him..my life became a mess..My mum got to know abt that..trust has been broken..and it will never been mend..When ever i stay out..my mum would ask..Who are you with? is it mly? Which friend.. She will always remind me.. She will say don do that kind of thing out and let me see..!!! Everytime she says that my impulsion increase and i will become impatient..That's me..

But still after all she's my mum..

Yong Ling..thanks for being there for me.. You are a good friend.. You cried for me..rmb? That day when they wrote Gary GPRS [Geylang Prostitute Republic Singapore] on the board you scolded wei ming..You said why they can accept you but not me..why must they make life difficult for me..etc..thanks sis..You are really my true friend.. [My tears start to roll down]
You talk me down..if not i wouldn't have been able to write my confession here.. I wanted to jump down rmb? Because the suffering..the disturbing..the gossipping became a burden to me..making me dare not accept the fact and facing the world..you said i still have you sis..thanks..

Mei teng..seriously..you change alot..still rmb how you backstab me and etc..But we became best friend..And you got to know my mum.. Saw the growth in you..what ever i did was so childish.. and i'm sorri..

Yin Hong..I still don understand why you told Mt to don call me and don ask me come..cos you don wan to see me..i don understand..we were best friend aren't we??but how come even you backstab me? but what ever it is i still treat you as my friend..just that my mouth don say it.. i'm a stubborn guy la.. i'm not angry.. i was being stubborn..and don drag me to MLM business..i cannot make it there..and i'm sorry..for giving you that big aeroplane [fang fei ji]

Wilson.. nth big happen to us..right? i still rmb we were really best friend..but i donno how we became one.. we shared alot.. i know you know.. sometimes our terms and stand may be differnt..but still you are my best friend.. sorri that i never contact you..cos i don have your new number..but now i got it le.. ;)

As i step further and further..i became older and older.. and sometimes when you think back..you will find out that there are more alternative ways to do things.. but still it's over..sometime when you lose something you will cherish it..when you got something you will tend to misuse it..or not to cherish it..

Life isnt as easy as it were.. But Guys..I love you all.. Friends Forever..