The future

Yst after the library thingy.. went to have my dinner at banquet..had something from kavin's brayani.. yong jie ate yong tau foo.. hmm..yup3.. he ordered chiili in his soup..the big one..i thought it is not hot but i realise it's spicy.. hahas..so yong jie had to buy the drink in a unexplainable fast speed..

lol.. yup3..hmm..actually everybody was very emo yst.. especially yong jie.. he told us abt his mum's background.. and etc.. hmm.. he told us that he scare his mum got depression and stuff..mum then said this is of course..as a house wife..hmm.. must do the same thing over and over again..seldom go out..still must worried abt their childrens and stuff..hmm i open my heart and talk to them yst.. even though i wanted to like cry yst.. but i acted quite well.. and luckily my tears did not come out.. i actually told myself not to cry..try not to cry le.. but sometimes i can't controlled myself.. even though ppl beat me up..but i still bear with it.. not because i'm trying to be strong all what..i just don wan to share my sadness with my friends..

talk alot yst.. abt my mum..my step mother.. my step sis..my step bro..and real bro etc and etc..yup3..yong jie also share quite alot.. i mean he really think alot in times.. and i'm glad he is such a filial son.. his friend is gone.. his mother talk to him abt bonding stuff.. he BGR thing.. hmm..i think he need to relax himself abit..don keep all to yourself cause sometime you will explode unwillingly.. share your burden with us.. don keep to yourself like me.. alright..

When a person commit suicide.. the moment he hit the floor..you can imagine how painful it is..but it is not as painful as the family left behind.. ones suffered physical pain..the others suffered emotional pain.. yong jie said he cried.. during the funeral.. not because of "him" but because of his mum..when he saw his mum..how pity she is..he cried.. you may say how much can i know?? i did not go thru it.. but there was once my classmate her mum and sibling die at kranji.. i cried.. no body know.. i cried not because of her mum etc.. i cried because i see her dad cried.. i saw the pityness in him.. a guy; or to say a strong guy like him..cried like that.. my heart cried.. physically and emotionally..You can scold "him" irresponsible etc..but i just at that particular moment when yong jie share with us.. i felt pityness..the pain they are going thru.. or to say "touch wood" my friends die.. i think i will break down..especially close friends..

What i can do now is to pray for everyone of them..especially yong jie.. he is having his exams soon..so i scare that he can't cope with it..yong jie if you need to see a counceller pls go for it alright..it do helps sometimes.. take care alright..

yst after the dinner..we walked ard at causeway point..hmm..went to E.M.F to look thru some books.. hmm finally i decided to buy the book..the aunty left for me.. hmm.. i bargained a while so i brought the book for 6 dollars.. hmm..the book have 219 pages.. till now i read until 198 pages.. hmm..you can imagine how good the book is.. i just love it man.. i read till 1.30am yst..before i felt asleep..while reading the books i felt sad..my heart ache.. i never felt this before..when i read last time.. i cried.. the story is actually kind of sad.. that's why... i enjoyed reading and i think author like her shuld write more..