i'm so fat even though i have slim dwn

hmm..now in woodlands library.. just now in the morning went to jurong east library..done my work there..and brought some food home to cook for my dinner..everything planned..after i brought my ingredient went back home straight..reached home ard 5 plus.. cooked my dinner..ate it and finshed ard 6 plus.. and then i start to prepare to go to the library..cause i borrowed 2 books under zane's name..and today is the due date so ya..came to return..;)

it's the sign language book.. :)

then yong jie came to find me..a while only..cause coincidently he is at cause way point.. ;) so ya.. hmm..i let him listen to the 881 sound track..i brought it i think two days ago?? i borrowed money from yong jie first..of course returned him liao..then he called his mum and ask her to buy.. hmm..yong jie went off after staying a while..then he messaged me..and said that the disc is sold out..hahas..that day i buy..popular sold out.. i managed to get the disc at music junction..and at that time..still have quite a number of stock..yup3..but that's quick..hahas.. but not that satisfied with the disc..cause not all the song especially 12 lotus flower the main song is not inside the disc.. wth.. the song is nice..but not inside..

not in the cafe now.. i;'m siting next to the dust bin..lol.. cause cafe no place..then now got this fencing..so ya.. don like it..so decided to sit at the old usual place..near the window..;) what am i doing?? checking my mails..updating my blogs.. checking my friendster..and mango's birthday is coming on the aug 26.. happy birthday..hahas.. quite early right..today only 19.. hey still got 1 week la..

i'm still not quite happy with my weight.. my size..hmm..even though i'm not as fat as the charater in 200 pound series..but i'm still fat.. i hate being fat..so many negative point..
firstly i don look presentable..secondly i'm not that confident with the size..even though i tried to like don eat so much..but doesn't help..thirdly going to gym..?? yes..i do go to gym..and by looking my arms you guys will know i got trained my arm..but most importantly is my tummy and the baby fats on my face..and i read this health magaZINE they say we can't possible visit the gym ourself..cause we doesn't know what is suitable for us.. and who knows (*touch wood) we will die in the gym.. we need a dietian a nutrionist..etc..but look at my face ( even though you guys can't see) do you think i have the money for that?? just hope so.. i wanna slim down..i really wan to slim down..ppl like aidil..so nice body.. envy them..hmm..but most important lazyness..lazyness ruined everything.. :(

i don wan to be a fatty bom bom..i wan to be slim..i wan to walk on street ppl will notice me hahas.. (tak malu).. you guys got watched honour and passion?? hmm..i watched that show i have this fear..cause it talks abt army and stuff.. i'm starting to be scare of it..i scare i failed my ippt.. i scare i can't pass.. ruin the platoon..and stuff..and can't do pull up.. argh!!! i'm totally a failure..i may look..clever..i may llok strong..but who knows what i am thinking.. sometime i do have fear..sometime i do feel lonely helpless..but who know it..

look at me..you guys will say aiya..don crap la..don bullshit..you always look so happy you always look like you have no worries..but do you think i'm like this?? sometime i just felt that if friends are really good to me.. i will good to them.. it's like they give me one sweet i give them back 10 sweets.. just an example..yup3..

anyway..don wish to talk much le..just hope ppl thast are having test will do well.. and good luck to aidil for the presentation.. as for zane..hmm hope he do well in his singing and studies.. as for yong jie hope he do well for accounting.. for mum hope she do well in her studies..as for jeanette hope she do well in life..and learn how to be a person..hahas.. crap* me..hope i do well in my studies..and my life.. and learn how to slim down!!!! lol..